But I'm sad. Can't help it either. My ex boyfriend doesn't like me. But I still care about him alot.. I just wish I could go back in time and fix things between me and him. I miss him sooo much and I wish that I could have him back.

Its so easy for a guy to just give up on someone that they love because of something that the person did. But why can't they just forgive them. I would love to hear him say, "I do love you still. I forgive you" or something like that. I don't really care what he says but I just hate being alone. I hate the fact that he can move on like nothing ever happened between us. I'm dying inside and he's all calm. No matter what I do I guess I can't change his mind.
I apologized......I told him that I don't care about anyone else. But he doesn't believe me and was probably tired of my crap in the first place. (maybe thats why he wont try)

And for the person who isn't responsible but was part of the uh...situation....... I hate your fucking guts. I don't want you to read that YEAR OLD letter! I don't give a fuck what happens to you! Your stupid band or baseball! screw you! I didn't try to stop myself because I thought that no matter what happened you might atleast be my friend afterwards. But I guess someone (name goes here) was right. I did exactly what you wanted. and im sure you waited for the opportunity to walk away and leave me all alone. You did it before and im sure it was no problem doing it again.

I hate life. Do you? Do ever realize how life is so screwed up and horrible? It sucks. Its hard to stay innocent in a world that forces you to grow up so quickly.